Hey guys! Welcome back to my blog! This week we had to rewrite the scene from blog post number 5 but make it counterfactual. The question I am writing about is “what would have happened if I would have texted back and wanted instead of leaving her on read?” Extended Family
Summer 2018 was a very diffrent time in my life, changed my life in a way. This day I felt a million diffrent emotions in about 3 minutes.... I came home from school saw a unopened box on the counter and went stairs upstairs to lay down. I get up go grab a snack and then come back upstairs, lay backdown and I hear a "ding ding" from my phone and start looking for my phone, I find it and see a notification from instagram, I click and it opens to messages. My hearts stops..... the message reads "Hi my name is Ayana. and I am your sister" I close my phone and think to myself "WTFFFFF" my sister? huh? is this person a crackhead looking for money? So time goes by and I get another message this time its longer she says I know your probabaly really confused and scared, but I really am your sister and I've been trying to find you for the longest time, she then goe into saying I have other siblings that want to meet you. But in my head im still thinking thia girl is abosolutley crazy, but I respond saying you have the wrong person. But then she tells me some personal things about me and my dad which makes me wonder maybe she is my sister... I stop replying to her and wait unitl my dad gets home to ask him to confirm what shes saying. 4 hours later...... ( My dad walks in the door) "Hey dad can I talk to you real quick" My dad sits down on the couch " yeah whats going on" I say "so today after school i got a message on instagram from a girl that claims to be my sister and says that her mom is my mom. Is it true?" My dad explains that she is my sister and that he wanted to tell me this on his own time, he explained to me what had happened. and gave me the choice to answer her back if i wnated a relationship with her. I sat and started to process everyhting in my head, it was all very overwhelming and alittle scary to think that theres people out there that know more about me then I know of them. A few days later I ended up messaging my sister on instagram and asking her if she wanted to to meet in person and she answered saying yes. We planned to meet at a cafe down town and she brought all of my other sibling wiht her and we hada. nice time drinking coffee and eating scones and muffins.
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Hey guys welcome back to another blog post! This week had to read Hills Like White Elephants, and other texts which are all linked below. After reading this we now to write our own scene. Something that happened in our lives that was emotional. Here's my scene and I hope you enjoy it! Extended Family
Summer 2018 was a very diffrent time in my life, changed my life in a way. This day I felt a million diffrent emotions in about 3 minutes.... I came home from school saw a unopened box on the counter and went stairs upstairs to lay down. I get up go grab a snack and then come back upstairs, lay backdown and I hear a "ding ding" from my phone and start looking for my phone, I find it and see a notification from instagram, I click and it opens to messages. My hearts stops..... the message reads "Hi my name is Ayana. and I am your sister" I close my phone and think to myself "WTFFFFF" my sister? huh? is this person a crackhead looking for money? So time goes by and I get another message this time its longer she says I know your probabaly really confused and scared, but I really am your sister and I've been trying to find you for the longest time, she then goe into saying I have other siblings that want to meet you. But in my head im still thinking thia girl is abosolutley crazy, but I respond saying you have the wrong person. But then she tells me some personal things about me and my dad which makes me wonder maybe she is my sister... I stop replying to her and wait unitl my dad gets home to ask him to confirm what shes saying. 4 hours later...... ( My dad walks in the door) "Hey dad can I talk to you real quick" My dad sits down on the couch " yeah whats going on" I say "so today after school i got a message on instagram from a girl that claims to be my sister and says that her mom is my mom. Is it true?" My dad explains that she is my sister and that he wanted to tell me this on his own time, he explained to me what had happened. and gave me the choice to answer her back if i wnated a relationship with her. I sat and started to process everyhting in my head, it was all very overwhelming and alittle scary to think that theres people out there that know more about me then I know of them. To this day I still havent reached out its all just to overwhelming to think about opening that box again. Welcome back! for this post I had to read and annotate 3 different readings, which are hyperlinked down below for your own reading enjoyment. After reading and annotating theses articles, I was then instructed to create a scene where I discuss writing with the authors and to use three quotes from each of them. It was a very cold winters day. I had just got home from school and started reading the three articles by Anne Lamott, Mary Karr, and Don Murray. I sat there procrastinating like always talking on the phone, watching netflix, and eating snacks when I really should be thinking what I should be writing in my next blog. But i think to myself theres to much distractions at my house let me go to the monument sit there and finish my work. I pack my bookbag with pens pencils my laptop, and of course some snacks!!!
I get to the moument only to see 3 people sitting at a table next to an empty table. I sit down and unpack my belongings put my airpods in and star my blog assignment. Once I finally focus in I hear a voice from the other table "The writing process itself can be divided into 3 stages: prewriting, writing, and prewriting." Once I hear that it makes me think about writing my blog and I turn and see who said it once I turn I see, Don Murray , Mary Karr, and Anne Lamott !!!! I turned and asked if they could help me with writing my blog assignment because I have no idea where to start. Mary says "In the beginning, when there are zero pages you have to cheer yourself into cranking stuff out even if later lands on the cutting room floor" and Anne says "Very few writier really know what their doing until they've done it". I then turn to Don and ask what he meant when he said that the writing process can be divided into 3 stages. He replies and says "Writing is the act of producing a first draft it is the fastest part of the process the most frightening for its a commitment. I tell them that the most frustrating part about writing is when I write and it never turns out what I want it ot how I expect it to be. Mary says "Every writer whos wortha damn spends more time losing then winning" which gave me a sense of comfort. I've always felt like it just me that writes and writes and it always ends up turning out horrible. Anne also argees with what Mary says and adds "the only way I can get anything written at all is to write really, really shitty drafts first. Don says that " instead of teaching finishsed writing, we should teach unfinished writng and glory in its unfinishedness." I start to feel comfotable and my creative juices start flowing and I ask one more question before leaving the monument. I ask what is the secret to being a good writer? Mary answers saying " revision is the secret to their troubles" and Anne says " Good writing is about tellingthe truth" I left the monument feeling very confident and proud of my writing and couldnt wait until the next time i had to hand in a blog assignment! For this post I am reading a very emotional story called A Fable for the Living (Kevin Brockmeier). It is about a wife who is writing letters to what I think is tto express and heal herself which is what writing can be used to do. Now since reading that story ive been thinknig about my relationship with my authors self , and i am going to write a letter to express my myself as Kevin Brockmeier did in "A Fable for the Living". Dear Chanel,
We havent talked in awhile, we've always been very distant. But maybe we need to have a better realtionship and I think that starts with this Letter, everytime we've talked its always been so weird well not weird more like awkward never knowing what to say , not knowing where to start. But right now im going to fix that and im sorry that it has taken me so long to fix this problem. Im going to start by journaling every-morning and night i'll tell you how im feeling going into the day, and how I feel once the day is over. Lastly I just want to be able to try on not giving up and to keep persevering. From this letter I hope you see that I am trying to build and replenish our relationship and become stronger together!!! Love, Emoni In this post I read the interacted the following to frame my writing:
In this post, I respond to the The Proust Questionnaire
__1.__What is your idea of perfect happiness? ~ My idea of perfect happiness is just having a good life surrounded by people I love, to have enough money to be able to take care of myself and my soon to come family. __2.__What is your greatest fear? ~ My greatest fear is wasps, I just don't like the fact they you don't have to bother them to sting you and to add to that they look absolutely terrifying. __3.__What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? ~The trait I most deplore in myself is that sometimes I can be very blunt __4.__What is the trait you most deplore in others? ~The trait I most deplore in others inconsistency, arrogance, and carelessness __5.__Which living person do you most admire? ~ I admire me myself and jordan and aderonke __6.__What is your greatest extravagance? ~ My abundance of expensive makeup __7.__What is your current state of mind? ~Relaxed and calm __8.__What do you consider the most overrated virtue? ~ I don't know for sure __9.__On what occasion do you lie? ~Ummm when it's needed, or if the person doesn't need to know the truth __10.__What do you most dislike about your appearance? ~ My stomach and my skin not the color of it just the texture. __11.__Which living person do you most despise? ~ Can't think of anyone __12.__What is the quality you most like in a man? ~The ability to love and able to show it, and especially to be gentle and be able to go out and make his own intelligence __13.__What is the quality you most like in a woman? ~To be nurturing and compassionate __14.__Which words or phrases do you most overuse? ~ Like, Period __15.__What or who is the greatest love of your life? ~Can't answer that __16.__When and where were you happiest? ~ Well there's been lots of times, but the most recent was when I went out to eat with my boyfriend and two close friends on my birthday. __17.__Which talent would you most like to have? ~ To be able to sing __18.__If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? ~ My teeth __19.__What do you consider your greatest achievement? ~Graduating and going straight into college __20.__If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? ~ Myself __21.__Where would you most like to live? ~ Idk somewhere far, I don't really have a specific place but in a nice house in a secluded area. __22.__What is your most treasured possession? ~Don't have one __23.__What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? ~ I don't know haven't experienced it __24.__What is your favorite occupation? ~Teaching __25.__What is your most marked characteristic? ~Serious __26.__What do you most value in your friends? ~Honesty __27.__Who are your favorite writers? ~Don't have any __28.__Who is your hero of fiction? ~Don't have one __29.__Which historical figure do you most identify with? ~ I don't really identify with any __30.__Who are your heroes in real life? ~Don't have one __31.__What are your favorite names? ~Reign ~Mahiya ~Carter ~Jasmyne __32.__What is it that you most dislike? ~ Probably when people bother me when I clearly don't want to be bothered __33.__What is your greatest regret? ~Don't have __34.__How would you like to die? ~PEACEFULLY!!! __35.__What is your motto? ~Don't have one |
Emoni Walker
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